I have recently took steps to better myself through the path of the Jedi, and I love it. I will be combining my training methods from this organization and another. Hopefully the two different approaches will have a synergistic effect on each other.
Through my experience so far from reading the introductory course from The Institute for Jedi Realist Studies, I have already learned a little about myself. I have learned that my strength lies in mental intuition. I knew that I had strong intuition, I know peoples thoughts and intentions quite well, even if they don’t. It makes me seem cold-hearted sometimes also. Someone may say, “I don’t feel good,” and when I know they are lying to get sympathy I withdraw my attention. However if someone were to say they did not feel good, and I knew it was true, nothing would be able to stop me from doing my best to care for them.
I simply hate wasting energy on lies! What sucks is that on another organization other than the realist group, I sense nothing but competition for rank. The leader is awesome, and so are his teachings, however, members have this vibe of false humility. Like, “Look at how humble I am, hurry look!” So much time is spent on trying to impress others through the mask of humility that these people are losing sight of the real issue. This causes friction between people and myself, and many times bad feelings are the result, if not hurt feelings. It is usually me, who is the cause of the bad feelings despite my so-called “good intentions.”
Just like I withdraw myself from those who pretend to be sick, or those who lie about whatever, I almost want to withdraw from this group because I feel like it is a waste of the force. I just don’t get it. Why waste so much energy on roleplay to impress others? False humility is really just arrogance! Everyone just insists on feeding the ego to grasp a sense of self. The sense of self is the biggest illusion. Therefore, me trying to withdraw from these people is also counterproductive. I can’t withdraw because we are one in the same.
On the molecular level it has been scientifically proven that we are all connected. Not just us as people but the whole universe! We are not separate at all, we are all but pockets of energy in the same “force soup.” Science is telling us this now, but spiritualists have told us this for centuries.
It reminds me of the fall of Lucifer who was the minister of music in heaven. What did he want to do? Pridefully separate himself from God, and compete with him for the greatest title of status as ruler of the universe. I don’t think it has anything to do with sin. What has destroyed man is their need to separate themselves from each other, and the living breathing force that we are in all actuality, already one with. Does my finger compete with my penis to rule over my body? Then why should the body of the force and its collective concioussness be weakened by such nonsense? The answer is really simple. It isn’t weakened by it at all.
Power, false humility, ego, it is all one in the same. The force, and the so-called “dark side” are mutually dependant. Varying degrees of the same force. Some view friction between people as a divide between us all, like it is almost toxic. However, I know that it is needed. There is no “dark side”, just another necessary part of the force that we need to survive.
We need friction to create vibration and movement at the molecular level. This is the essance of life. The friction we experience between each other is just an example of that same thing on a larger scale. We create friction with each other to sustain the life of the living breathing force. We are but tiny cells in the body of the universe, the universe is but a tiny cell in the galaxy.
There is no Yin and Yang, there is Yin Yang. They are mutually dependant and not mutually exclusive. No good and evil, no up and down, no opposites at all. Opposites is just another illusion! Man I will think myself to death one day! I hope you can get at least one organized thought out of this. My mind is all over all the time, and it really does just need to stop.
-Syris
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See, you got things worked out on the blog at least – not too hard once you get the hang of it.
You know, there are a lot of source of knowledge – many teachers, many schools – within the Jedi community and without. But I believe that the environment surrounding a teaching matters just as much as the material itself. A person can have the best teachings in the world but if you are in an environment that distracts from those teachings it may do more harm than good. Personally I tend to leave negative environments fairly quickly because I’m just too old for all that bs.
However, friction and tension between people will always exist. One common lesson among virtually all humans is to learn to coexist in some way. Sometimes we fail miserably and just kill each other. Other times we learn to embrace our differences and create harmony from discord. And sometimes we find people that are as like minded as possible so we don’t have to work quite so hard to find harmony in our relationships.
I had a really challenging situation a few years back with someone who claims to be a Jedi. The details aren’t important, but this person challenged me in so many ways. I would write something, with good intention, and it would blow up in my face. Instead of focusing on them what I did is focus on me. I’d ask myself if my intentions really were good. If not, I made myself wait longer to respond. If so, I made sure to write and then read through what I wrote again before posting to make sure I said what I meant. It forced me to look at my words from an outside perspective. The process was painful. It was annoying. But from it I learned an awful lot about being a better teacher, a better leader, and a better Jedi. I still struggle with relationships and interpersonal communication but I get a lot of opportunity to practice with the Institute. I hope you find it a place where you can learn to communicate more clearly so your good intentions don’t blow up quite as much.
It is a fairly safe space where no one will just jump on you to be an ass, simply offer perspectives, criticisms, all from a fairly positive space.
Welcome, and I look forward to reading more.